The Okcitykid – A Peaceful Vet

From Homes and property

HEAVEN
Outside I smoke my cigarette and wonder
What have I ever done to earn all this
The peace and content
In my younger days
I did dream of greater things
Things I never got
But now, Everything I need, I have
All that I need is all that I want
Content and at peace
There are others I know who have much more
But what they need, they don?t have
I do
I have all that I need
All that I need is all that I want
At peace and content
I smoke my cigarette and wonder
How did I reach this place
At peace and content
This must be heaven

By: Roger Harkness

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I wrote this before the Iraq war and I always believed it wouldn?t last.

Afghan Girl

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There is one particular women who did inspire me to write this, but, I think this is about all women with green eyes. This isn?t about facts, though there may be some truth to it, this is about feeling. How a green eyed women makes you feel.

From Treehousebydesign.com

A FEMALE OAK TREE

She's an oak tree
Stronger then any man I've ever seen
She's real woman
So brave
Not afraid to love
And won't frighten you
by insulting you
She will respect
and understand you
You battle the war of women's rights
A war you never volunteered for
Just trying to be yourself
You've been through it all
Did not fall
You stand tall and strong
Ready to fight some more
Yet so softly you hug me
I don't mind being your little bear
Your arms are like a home
A place safe from harm
Your kiss is soft and warm
Food to a bleeding heart
Someday we will meet again
In a better place
At a better time
You can tell me all about it then
I'm listening
Hoping the best for you Until we meet again

By: Roger Harkness

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This was the third woman I fell in love with in Antarctica during my second austral summer in 1987.? After my awakening when I learned to love myself. It was a powerful love.? It was during a party.? This chief would get drunk and hug on all the women just so he could get a feel and I was so embarrassed watching this.? Last he was hugging on her.? So I told her I was sorry that some men act that way and she said she didn?t mind.? She was proud that women her age and what she called a spare tire, could still attract men.? She was a bit older than me I must admit.? But that answer impressed me.? So we began to talk and she told me how she had been aboard a tender out at sea in a storm and we laughed as we talked about walking on the bulkheads (walls) as the ship turned sideways and I was in love, because she was in love with the sea just like me.? That?s something I?m going to have to explain some day.? She had been the third person in other relationships and really enjoyed it, and understood where I was coming from.? Though I hardly knew her it was like I knew her all her life and it seemed like she knew me too.? It was powerful.

She was the Fire Chief of the McMurdo Station Fire House and as the only women in the Fire House, she would be wintering over after I went home, I was just a part of the summer support crew.

She invited me to the Fire House and I would watch a movie with her, then she would see me to the door before I left and give me a kiss, so soft and gentle I would melt, it was like medicine to a broken heart and I would visit the Fire House about three times a week for the rest of that summer just to watch a movie with her just so I could have that kiss.

Even after I left her there for the winter, it seemed like I could communicate to her in my mind.

As of late I have been very seriously contemplating suicide. I won’t explain why because I don’t think anyone will understand. Because we live in a world that does not understand, a world that is at war and suffers from global warming and is only concerned about what pair of shoes should I wear. Though I can see this quiet clearly, it is I who will be prosecuted for being a blind man.

As of late I have lost a lot of my faith in God. Because there are people who cry out to this God to only see their loved ones blown to pieces and so they even cry out to this God even more and only witness more destruction. I don’t understand, what is God? and what good is prayer?

Never-the-less I find myself in hurt, a hurt that I do not believe anyone will understand and all I want to do is die, so I pray to God. Whatever this God is and however prayer works I don’t know, I only know I got an answer. That answer is to sponsor a child and already I feel better just thinking about it. So I will do that and share that child with you here.

From Tembre’ Wolfe

Sent to me by Timbre’ Wolf

MY GIRL FRIEND – YELLOW THUNDER

?Practitioners of Falun Gong are tortured to death and then their organs are taken under the guise of an autopsy to determine death. The organs are sold on the open market, the proceeds being recouped by the government. I suppose to finance the elimination of the Falun Gong movement.

A report called “Bloody Harvest” had been sent to me over a year ago. I posted it on my bravenet blog not knowing really what it was. But I recently came across a forum post on Captain Cynic which provided more information.

Hey, God person
What you create today?
and where the hell were you yesterday
Telling me I would be more successful
and happier being your way
But I?m not complaining

What are you going to do about the starving?
Will you bother to show them how?
They don?t have the donations
I have to offer

On the last day
When God asks you,
How are you going to say?
What mountains have you moved?
What storm have you tamed?
Have you helped others
or have you just helped yourself?
Receiving fame from the fools who follow you
They?re just as blind as you

I?m not understanding why.
People aren?t watching clouds pass by
Birds flying high
Trees don?t grow
When they bow down
to people like you.
Veins of the path lie beneath the skin,
If people would just look within.
The grass we walk on
Without caring to see
Can show us about you and me.
Look eye to eye,
and see every side of a round world.
Each truth has a different color,
All colors feel differently,
Each feeling has a path
Going the same direction
Reaching up.
We can reach out
Learning what it?s all about.
Darkness is seeing your own hunger,
And not caring about another.
With hearts shut off and turned inward,
We can?t look at the pain of another
Without understanding.
We just hurt each other,
But you are taken care of
Aren?t you?
With your heart drunken with all their attention
Your pockets filled with all their money
You?re a happy successful man
At peace, giving yourself to God
You?re rewarded for sharing with us the plan
Bullshit
you have only given yourself to vanity man
Looking up to you to fill their hunger
They?re too blind to see the scam

I?m not one to criticize
God knows I?m no perfect man
But I do claim to understand
You want to follow Jesus
Give all you own to the poor
and wear the shoes of the homeless
Jesus had nothing
and showed us everything
He truly belonged to the Father
Didn?t have to bother asking for anything
Without the help of broadcasting equipment
His words reached around the world
Under many tons of pressure
He sweat tears of blood
He did
But you don?t
He cared
You won?t
To claim you follow him
Isn?t fair
You want to help
Stop taking our money
Stop putting us down
Jesus didn?t
And you shouldn?t
Without knowing the name of the son of man
Buddha followed his words more than you
Won?t you be surprised when Jesus says to you
I never knew you

Blessed is the one who tries to follow the way of Jesus
But isn?t always able to
Cursed is the one who tells us to
But doesn?t
Forgiving us of our sins
Who?s going to forgive you?

Jesus had no credit account
Retirement fund
or limousine to take him about
Without all that
You say he saved the world
or did he just save you?
Preaching his words
You?ve obtained all that
When are you going to give it back?
There?s only so much to go around
Why should you have all that?
Who?s going to save the poor from you?
We don?t need more people like you.

Do you really know the truth?
Do you care
Do you really want to help
Doing the work of the gospel?
Stop your preaching
Pay your taxes like Jesus told you to
Get down here
and help out

Have you ever wondered why Jesus was a friend
to your sinners?
Why he was an enemy
to you?
Instead of fessing-up
You had to try to shut him up
After you had him nailed up
He asked the Father to forgive you
Even one of your sinners
At his side
Jesus was not ashamed
He even took him
With him
Judge yourself honestly
You must think you?re better then me
Jesus didn?t see it that way
Why should you?

What is the truth?
To see each other eye-to-eye
What is the plan?
To understand
What is the way?
To give each other
a helping hand

Does it hurt you
for me
to put you down?
Don?t do it to me
Eye to eye
is the way
Together
We can all make it be

By sharing
We are taking
all the hurt, pain and hunger away

It could be a good day
Seeing the grass we walk on
Seeing every side of a round world
You will even see God around
Feeling each color of every truth
God will speak right to us
We will find everybody doing the same thing
differently
for the same reason
As God guides us
As God guides every other living thing
that surrounds us
Being back in the Garden of Eden
The Kingdom of Heaven
Jesus taught was within
will now be on earth
as it is in heaven

By reaching in
We can reach out
By sharing what is within us
about
We will take it out

By: Roger Harkness

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I wrote this after the Baker affair.? Mr. Baker, a TV televangelist had raped his secretary who had gone to Playboy to tell the story and then the IRS had gotten him for tax fraud, making a considerable profit off of donations.? It was a big affair back then and in anger I scratched these words out.

From Claudia

I was watching the history channel the other day about scientist and doctors trying to decide what part of the crucifixion killed Jesus and a history of crucifixion. It was amazing. I had no idea that it (crucifixion) went back to Alexander the Great (before Jesus). Unbelievable man’s inhumanity to man.

Anyway, at the very end the commentator asked why Christians after what was done to Jesus would use the cross for their symbol but still okay torture and crucifixion .

Torture of any kind should remind us of what Jesus went through. The torture pictures at Gitmo/Abu Gra. of that man with the hood over his head standing on a box and tied up like Jesus should have shaken us and demanded trials and the impeachment of Bush and gang.

Tying a man’s hands above his head is extreme torture (not to mention all the other things done like beatings that left skin shredded, nailing ankles to the cross, etc.). Due to the position on the cross or T frame, they lose oxygen and can’t breathe. The pain is unbearable.

Very eye opening historical view. The crucifixion of men and women was the ultimate torture and probably one of the worst ways to die. Some lasted for days. Horrible.

Scientist think that Jesus died from the blow he received falling with the cross. They think it damaged his heart and he died of heart failure/aneurysm. Any of the beatings, no food, no water, etc. would have made it worse and of course the inability to breathe to full capacity.

It is recorded that when the soldier pierced Jesus to see if he was dead that blood and a water fluid shot out which would be the result of the heart aneurysm.

They pointed out a few things that we believe that were not true. For example, the cross he carried would have been only the top support beam as back then they had the other one already inserted in the ground and they would just place the top beam with Jesus on it. There is no way a man in that condition could have carried a whole cross. In all likelihood it was really a T shape. Also, that crucifixion was so common back then that there was not a large crowd at the site where he died. It happened so much that it was common place and sadly the Romans looked at Jesus as another crazy Jew.

Anyway, it was an eye opener. Alexander the Great (before Jesus) would kill thousands of people with crucifixion and line them up along the shores to die. It was the extreme message of “Don’t mess with us”….”We rule you”.

Of course Hitler used it too. They would not support the legs or feet and that way the men would die faster from lack of oxygen to the lungs.

After all these centuries, we still torture. We learned nothing from Jesus dying…nothing.

In Iraq/I remember reading about a taxi driver that our soldiers picked up with “alleged” terrorists. He died from being hung in his cell. The soldiers even admitted they knew he was innocent. They have to live with that even though they are all following orders.

The fact that this government tried to blame the solders when it first came out shows how corrupt they are. We now know that Bush and gang sanction torture.

If you ever get the chance to watch this on the History Channel, you should.

To claim Christianity and yet follow a leader that tortures people the way Jesus was tortured is not only wrong but crazy.