So many times I’ve been deceived
And I don’t know how it happens
It seems that I will not listen
But I hear them words anyway
They cycle through my head
And I think I’ve figured out a way
The day turns into darkness
Filled with delusions
I am blessed with confusion
Reality hits me in the face
I feel like such a disgrace
There is a natural way
You’ve been there all along
Why can’t you stick to it
Seeing what it has to say
But instead you turn and go
Every which way
But in my defense
I’ve learned something new
Just like I always do
It has made me a little stronger
I can see things much better
Maybe being deceived
Finding I’ve been fooled
Is me
Growing in a natural way
I’ve been on top of the mountain
and I’ve been in the valley
I remember the past
and I know the future
I’m not always right
and I’m not always wrong
Things don’t always go as planned
One thing I know for sure
I’ve been there
and you may be too
I wish I could tell you like they tried to tell me
But I wouldn’t listen to them
and you won’t listen to me
We all have to make our own mistakes
It’s the way we see
I just wish this didn’t have to be
Maybe if we judged ourselves as harshly as we judge others
Maybe then it could be
Wait, I’m wrong
Should have done better than this
Please, I’ll be strong
I’m finding it hard to resist
So show me what I’m looking for
CHORUS
Save me, I’m lost
Oh lord, I’ve been waiting for you
I’ll pay any cost
Save me from being confused
Show me what I’m looking for
Show me what I’m looking for…oh lord
Don’t let go
I’ve wanted this far too long
Mistakes become regrets
I’ve learned to love abuse
Please show me what I’m looking for
CHORUS
Save me, I’m lost
Oh lord, I’ve been waiting for you
I’ll pay any cost
Save me from being confused
Show me what I’m looking for
Show me what I’m looking for…oh lord
Show me what I’m looking for
Show me what I’m looking for
Show me what I’m looking for
CHORUS
Save me, I’m lost
Oh lord, I’ve been waiting for you
I’ll pay any cost
Just save me from being confused
Wait, I’m wrong
I can’t do better than this
I’ll pay any cost
Save me from being confused
Show me what I’m looking for
Show me what I’m looking for
Show me what I’m looking for
Show me what I’m looking for…oh lord
Let’s remember: this holiday is not Armistice Day, or Armed Forces Day, or the birthday of the Army, Navy, Marine Corps, Air Force, Coast Guard or Merchant Marine….It’s Memorial Day
It is a day to mourn ALL who have died in war. A day to remember ALL the victims, the vast majority of whom are our brothers and sisters who, by an accident of birth, were born on the receiving end of the bombs and the occupations. Mourn them. If you march, carry a sign saying so.
Mourn our comrades. Mourn the dead and the wounded, the human beings who came back dehumanized because of what their government sent them to do.
But this day we mourn more than our own military dead. Yes, we are veterans, but we are also VETERANS FOR PEACE.
I once was cute in your eyes
But now I’m a bad man
In the eyes of a good woman
A man of pain
To a woman of hurt
I want to hold you
And tell you
I’m really a nice guy
And if you would let me
I’d give you a glass of sunshine
But you closed the door
You don’t want me no more
A sacrifice to live
Someday you’ll learn
And forgive
It is righteous to die
It is wrong to be happy
And fly
A bad home
Is no home
I came from one
I know
I know you did want me
But you just can’t believe me
And you don’t want to see me
But when the cards are laid
Everybody will see
I didn’t have
A bad hand
Another woman will come along
She’ll be strong
She’ll help me along
She’ll know
I wasn’t wrong
By: Roger Harkness
There are some people who will find something wrong with beauty. Kindness and goodness must be wrong. But criminals and careless people can’t help it, they just need help, sad, and what can you do?
I want to get inside you
Know what you know
Feel what you feel
I want to live the stories
You have to tell
I will let you inside my soul
Know what I know
Feel what I feel
You can live the stories
I have to tell
Touch me
Let me touch you
Hold me
Please me
Let me please you
Looking into each other’s eyes
We know
We’re in love
Hoping it will last
For as long as it can
But I don’t want to own you
Just spend some time with you
Please don’t take me
You can’t have me
Jealousy and hurt are for the takers and owners
I just want to love
And be loved
With anyone who can
Experiencing a voyage
into a different land
By: Roger Harkness
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Can’t remember why or when I wrote this. You’d think I’d remember something like this, my guess it was a day dream scribble. I would think if this was a real life event, I think I would remember. Sometimes I think I write about other people I have never met. Something they have felt and I have picked up on it. Anyways, if it touches you, well then, maybe it should.
Former defense secretary Donald Rumsfeld has always answered his detractors by claiming that history will one day judge him kindly. But as he waits for that day, a new group of critics—his administration peers—are suddenly speaking out for the first time. What they’re saying? It isn’t pretty
By Robert Draper
on the morning of Thursday, April 10, 2003, Donald Rumsfeld’s Pentagon prepared a top-secret briefing for George W. Bush. This document, known as the Worldwide Intelligence Update, was a daily digest of critical military intelligence so classified that it circulated among only a handful of Pentagon leaders and the president; Rumsfeld himself often delivered it, by hand, to the White House. The briefing’s cover sheet generally featured triumphant, color images from the previous days’ war efforts: On this particular morning, it showed the statue of Saddam Hussein being pulled down in Firdos Square, a grateful Iraqi child kissing an American soldier, and jubilant crowds thronging the streets of newly liberated Baghdad. And above these images, and just below the headline secretary of defense, was a quote that may have raised some eyebrows. It came from the Bible, from the book of Psalms: “Behold, the eye of the Lord is on those who fear Him…To deliver their soul from death.”
This mixing of Crusades-like messaging with war imagery, which until now has not been revealed, had become routine. On March 31, a U.S. tank roared through the desert beneath a quote from Ephesians: “Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand.” On April 7, Saddam Hussein struck a dictatorial pose, under this passage from the First Epistle of Peter: “It is God’s will that by doing good you should silence the ignorant talk of foolish men.” (To see these and more Bush-administration intelligence cover sheets, visit GQ.com’s exclusive slideshow).
Luckier than most, I caught it early and found a smart doctor who knows why and can explain it to me. My delima is that I can’t take DHEA or Yombe as those two items appear to raise my blood pressure. These two items do very well keeping you sexually young.
This is a strange thing that young people might not understand, but I’m sure many my age would understand.
In my younger days I would masturbate and get myself off about 3 times a day and I thought I was a sinner and I felt real guilty about it, but it seemed I couldn’t do nothing about it. When a women walked by who I found attractive, magic would happen inside, I would be awe struck, like a dear in headlights.
Years later I had discovered that there was nothing sinful about this at all. It is perfectly natural. Everybody is different and some people are more sexual then others and it is not a curse or sign of weakness, but a blessing that has been ruined by an awful belief that sex is sinful.
How can you explain this to a young person without coming off sounding like a perv? That is a very painful thing. Very sad that we live in a society that is sex phobia and sadly the young people pick it up right away and will also bear their children in sinfulness. Only Jesus born of a virgin is righteous. If I’m not mistaken, this is the 21st century isn’t it?
Now that I’m older and this magic no longer happens and it is even difficult to get off once a day, sometimes impossible. Some would say that I’m still pretty lucky. There are a few who have never experienced an orgasm and yet others, very rarely and they might mistakenly believe it is because they are righteous while inside they feel anger finding it difficult to experience bliss. Be careful of these people. I believe they are the conservatives who believed in Bush, I bet you Dick Cheney is one of them.
We need to learn to talk about these things. Ok, that’s all I have to say for now.
I will love you
If you want me to
I will stay away
If you want it that way
Don’t tell me that you want me
If you will only say goodbye
More pain
Than I can hide
You have to be honest
You have to be true
For me and you
I’m not made of iron
I’m not made of steel
I may not cry
But I can feel
At work we are really busy. Sometimes I forget to eat and sometimes don’t find time to make me a cup of coffee, let alone drink it and when I do get to it, it is cold. I know, it brings tears to your eyes. The difficult part is old friends are complaining I don’t do enough for you know, world peace and stuff, and yes, that is important. But I’ve been doing a lot of overtime and I’m tired and I have stuff to do at home.
Just when you thought you could dry your eyes, guess what, for all this extra work, we got a pay cut AND to cover for a person who has left I have to work part of the week nights and part of the week days. But its temporary, just like the pay cut, the new smaller working space and yes we will someday get new equipment. I figure by time the new equipment gets here, it will already be used.
Hope I didn’t have you use up a box of tissue, I do believe in saving paper.
So I’m updating my resume and see what else I can find and in the mean time I found this relic I’m sure you’ll enjoy, I just had to post it.
