You can dissagree, because I have not found anyone to agree with me yet, but I still believe what I believe.

The rapture already happened. I wished I had the time to study, or money to hire historians to research my theory, but I have neither.

When I was in the Navy, I was fortunate enough to take a tour of the Catacombs of Rome, and they are huge. You can’t see them all in one day and the Catholic Church has part of the catacombs blocked off. An historian escorted us around and there I learned the biggining of the Catholic church.

This is what made me think, there are symbols etched into the walls that they still are not sure of the meaning. That doesn’t make sense.

So this is what I concluded. While the first of the Roman ceasars who would be converted to Christianity and become the first pope was still persecuting the Christians, word came to him that the Christians were gone. Ceasar knowing how Jesus had promised to return and take his followers could not let anyone know that they were taken for fear of being overthrown himself by a fearful angry people should they realize this. So he claimed to be converted and became the first pope of a church who would destroy any beliefs contrary, and so he did. That’s what I believed happened.

What is going to happen next is that Jesus and the Christians will return, and the kingdom on earth will be as it is in heaven as we were taught to pray.

This weekend I was depressed.  I had bad dreams that people did not like me, so I took a gun and blew my head off.  I prayed real hard to have better dreams and I did, last night I dreamt that everybody liked me.  Weird huh?

Update on the future.  I figure 2012 will be interesting and people are tired of me talking about it.  I think those of us in Oklahoma are going to be ok, but that’s only a guess, I have nothing but hearsay to base it upon.  My X wife said she had a strong feeling and I also have a feeling.  Also based on a dream I had long ago that the earth shook really bad and we had no TV, radio or telephone.  The discrepancy is, there was no mention of the Internet in this dream and I’m not real sure if that is relevant, but I’m guessing we won’t have any Internet either.  This is my guess from my brief studies on the subject.  Planet X will be headed onto a path right at us or close to it.  As planet X follows this path it will go right thru the Asteroid belt, and when it does this, as it has done in the past, it will send asteroids in our direction, at least one will hit us.  This has happened before to our earth.  But as in the dream, we lived, but didn’t know what happened.   This could explain why it was before I was born I saw a mushroom cloud.  I always believed it was an atomic explosion but now I believe it might have been an asteroid slamming into the earth.  All of this makes me think of the Georgia Guide Stones.

I have moved in with my old girl friend who has always loved me, as I have learned a great and simple lesson.  Though we must try to love all, don’t leave behind those who love you the most, they deserve your most.  Don’t try to make friends with those who want nothing to with you, just like Jesus when faced by a town of people who wanted him to leave, who thought swine were more important than people, he just walked away, that’s what you got to do. 

I’ve bought my girl friend an engagement ring, we plan on getting married in May.  She has lost her job.  I hope she finds a job soon so that we can begin to make plans.  I will be a grandfather in February and I’m not sure how I feel about that.  I’m supposed to be happy, but the grandchild will live over a thousand miles away so what’s the point, just means I’m getting older, but I’ll pretend to be happy because that’s what I’m supposed to do.  We are supposed to visit in May when the child is baptised and please don’t comment about the value of children being baptised, I will not post it, it doesn’t matter.  I believe God appreciates it anytime we think of him, and yes I believe God is a him based on a dream I had, so leave that one alone also.  We don’t know, we really don’t, people should just be allowed to believe what they want, you don’t know, so how can you tell anybody that they are wrong, because you might find yourself turning around some day and saying, “they were right all along.”

If my girlfriend gets a job I will buy me a new computer, it will have a solid state hard drive, something I’ve been waiting for a very long time.  I thought hard drives that spin in circles at thousands of rpms just to give us our data was a joke and was always wondering when we would move out of the dark ages, finally, can’t wait to get my hands on it.  A job with the Coca Cola Company looks promising, I will pray.

This blog used to link with my facebook, recently that has not worked, I need to figure out why, but if this post doesn’t, well then I’ll have to do it my self.  My facebook name is Minister Roger Peacefulpoet.  Sounds corny I know, but that was the only way facebook would let me do it, as I have recently became an ordained minister.  I had to make my first name minister, it would not except reverend.

Emily, one of my friends on facebook just brought up a good point.  Whether or not the green house effect really has an effect on the climate is only one part of the problem, a lack of oxygen is causing people to become sick.  Recently it has been discovered by accident that a lack of oxygen causes paranoia in people.   I was at a party some time back and someone had mentioned how everyone is so paranoid these days, I said, “it was the lack of oxygen.”  Everyone laughed, they thought I told a joke.  The other problem is TV,  if you come to know me you’ll hear me blame a lot things on the TV, but it is to blame for a lot of things.  On TV, the glass is almost always half empty.  We seem to be attracted to that, but in the end, the hero always wins.  In the real world we are never faced with all this death and destruction, and while we imagine ourselves as being the hero, in real life, we can never be that person, because that person is acting and the story is never real, even when they call it reality tv.  So we look around us and expect those we like to be that imaginary hero.  When we look at others we will always compare them with those we encounter on tv, the good and the bad, and these are only people acting out characters that don’t even exist.  So when the earth shakes and the tv will no longer work, it will be a good thing, we will be forced to see each other and ourselves as we really are and stop pretending to be something else or expecting others to be different.  The hypnotic trance of consumerism will pass and we will have to find new ways to be happy.  Rather than buying new things and throwing old things away, we will learn the value of things, ultimately the value of each other.

First of all, let me just say. Is their a God, Isn’t there a God, Heaven or Hell and how does that judgment thing work? I don’t know and you don’t know, but we have an idea based on our own studies and observations, and what we first learn is usually what we believe until we unlearn it later in life. We don’t know until we are dead if what we believe is right or wrong, until then, it is just a belief and all beliefs, I believe deserve equal respect. Equally I respect those who agree with me and those who do not.

Jesus had indicated that his blood would be shed for our forgiveness of sins.

No one has lived a perfect life, nor could anyone. It is impossible, first of all, because we don’t know why we are here and what we are supposed to be doing here. If we had this knowledge, we possibly could not live with ourselves knowing that many of us are utterly failing. Because if all was perfect, we would be good caretakers of this earth, realizing it as a gift God has given us in order to sustain our life. If we were all perfect, there would not be a hungry person among us, no one would be lonely. If we lived perfect lives, there would never be war. So this knowledge is hid from us, otherwise we may not be able to live with our selves. However Jesus was perfect, he knew why he was here, he knew what he had to do and he knew what would happen to him and followed thru to the very end. Jesus was a special soul, in my opinion, he is our older brother. He is what we collectively strive to be and in so doing, will one day, be like him, if we are true followers of him.

I found this set of videos that describe what I believe about Jesus perfectly. Jesus taught that if weeds grow amongst the good plants. If we remove the weeds we might destroy the good plants. So he leaves them there, and only until the harvest does he separate them. This is what Jesus did, this is how he taught us, and you might understand more of what that means if you watch these videos.

http://www.secretsofjesuschrist.com/

Salvation: We are not saved until we enter the gates of the Kingdom of Heaven, until then we are only on our way there and have only made a choice to go that direction. I do not doubt that I will be saved. In a dream many years ago I was told: “God takes us as if we were a ball of clay and makes us unto himself.”

Jesus said he had to shed his blood for our forgiveness. Jesus also said that if your right hand offend you, then cut it off, so that you may enter the kingdom. If we all took what Jesus said literally, many of us would be walking around with one less hand, while thanking Jesus for allowing his blood be shed so that we may be forgiven. That wouldn’t make any sense. Where we are failing is by taking the scriptures literally. It is poetry, words from the heart or dream talk.

By observing The Life, The Teaching and The Death of Jesus, and using these three things as an example, to the best of our ability, that is the path, he gave us to follow. Before that time, we were in darkness. But we’re not going to be perfect, we’re going to make mistakes, but while he lived and still lives he had shown that he had the power to forgive sins and was always graciously willing to do so, he didn’t have to die to do that. And he is still alive and is there for us should we need forgiveness. Now we can ask in prayer, anyone of us, anywhere, at any time. That’s what he meant by, I shed my blood so that you may be forgiven.

I find the letters of Paul to be very contra-virtual, I always have. While some of his teachings are like those of Jesus, others are just way off. I do not put my faith in the letters of Paul and I believe that Christians put to much faith in them.

Cindy Sheehan posted this on her Facebook and I thought I should repost it. Discouraged, Satan is the ruler of this world and we can’t change that. I tried to commit suicide and lived anyways and what the hell for. I’ll tell you why:

If I can stop one tear from falling today, I will have a good day. If you could stop one tear today, you can have a good day. If we all stopped one tear, we can all have a better day and the world can have a better day. We can never win, “BUT” we can make things better and that’s why we’re here.  So do your part and “STOP ONE TEAR TODAY”. Don’t give up like I tried to do.

Peace and Love
Roger

You want to hear something weird.  On the day that I tried to kill myself, there was a woman I knew about 6 years (correction: 8 years) ago who also tried to kill herself on that very same day.  Unlike me, having the pills all laid out in front of her, she changed her mind and strangely instead of dyeing like I was supposed to, I lived.  I wonder what would have happened if she decided to take those pills, we probably would have both died and it might of went like this.

Here I am standing before God, and God asks me, “What the hell did you do that for?”  I would reply, “nobody loves me.”  God would say, “Standing beside me here is a woman who loved you.”

She changed her mind and I lived.  Why did I live, maybe I got another chance.  I looked her up online and found her daughter on Facebook.  Contacted her daughter who gave me her mother’s phone number and we’re dating again.  In my lifetime I will have at least made one person happy, and that is worth living for.

Here’s the deal.  She loved me like no other women ever has and I dumped her in the dirt for someone else.  It had been done to me so I did it to her, a women who has never hurt me and I hurt her badly.  True, we did have an agreement, but I knew she loved me and I knew I would hurt her and yet I let her believe we would be forever and left her any ways.

She’s older than me, but you know what; Mohammed’s first wife, the woman it is said that he loved the most was 15 years older than him.  She proposed to him when he was 20 and he stayed with her, her whole life and when she died Mohammad was very sorry the day she had died.  So if an older women was ok for Mahammed, an older women is ok for me.  The women who has loved me the most and has never hurt me and has only been good to me, I have hurt the worst, yet she still loves me and is still good to me.  I don’t deserve her, but still she is mine.

A lesson I have learnt in my fifty years.  Such a simple lesson, yet I have been so slow to learn it.  Though we should love everyone, love those who love you the most, and you will live happy your whole life, no matter what terrible things may befall you.

Love
Roger

I told my therapist about how I remember before I was born.  I was in a wonderful place where there was perfect peace that is indescribable. Looking down I saw awful things, fighting and murder and such, I can’t recall all the details but I do remember the last thing I saw was a mushroom cloud bellowing up. An older man with white hair, beard and moustache (who in my younger years I believed was Jesus) came to me and said, “It’s time to go.” I felt like I knew it was coming but I was hoping it wouldn’t happen. I just could not believe after seeing all this, I would be sent there, I was distressed so much that my inside shook and tears flowed from my eyes. Understanding my pain, the older man wanting to reassure me that I would be okay put his hand on my shoulder and said, “It will be Okay.” You figure my father who was abusive never hurt me and  I spent 14 years in the Navy and never even fired a gun.

So my therapist told me a story about when she was eight and had an out of body experience.  She was very sick lying on the coach and left her body. The pain went went away and she felt so wonderful.  She was told she had to return but didn’t want to but was gently forced to anyways.

There is a better place to be where we all love each other and there is peace and happiness. I tried to go back there but couldn’t, so I guess I’m here for a reason and may someday find out why, maybe I will know why in 2012.

But never the less, I’m not crazy just because I remember something others cannot.  Things greater then we can explain.

So there we go.

Love
Roger

The First American Lived Before Christ, In China

A poem I posted in November of last year I re-posted on my Facebook, because Confucius was a very smart man.  But there is something very strange that he does that I could never understand.

First of all, this was before television was invented, before the days that we were all brain washed, plus there was far more oxygen in the air and a whole lot less paranoia.   Even though they hadn’t gone to the moon or was driving SUVs, people were very smart about the important things, they had what science calls “common sense.”  Something that got lost I think when we invented SUVs, but I’m not certain about that.  Just trying to make you understand that intelegence was alive and well and Confucious was one of the wisest.

Confucious taught something that was very strange that I could not understand.  He would have men and women seperated, they were not allowed to even walk together.  Women had to walk on one side of the street and men on the other.  That seemed so ignorant and yet it came from such an intellagent man.

I’ve lived 50 years now and I see that nothing on this earth has hurt me more than women, yet, nothing on this earth have I loved more than women.  Now this is really strange.  It seems the more I love women the more I am hurt by them, yet it is love that they seek and it is love that I give.  This is a great mystery folks.  This falls right in there with rocket science, and I’m not a rocket scientist, so I’m just really confused.

Why is it that God made it so that men and women would want each other, yet be so different that they keep missunderstanding eachother and hurting one another.  It occured to me that inorder to survive, you’ve got to forgive, or you can’t live.  I’m telling you this is a fact.  You’re going to get sick and tired and probebly die of cancer if you don’t forgive those who hurt you.   So we are forced to learn to forgive or we won’t live.

Forgivness I believe is one of the greatest virtues there will every be.  Maybe Jesus didn’t exist, or like Islam believes, did not die on the cross.  No matter.  The story is full of moral.  The greatest story ever told, whether true or not.  After all the ugly things they had done to him, just before he dies, he says, “Father forgive them for they know not what they do.”  Simply amazing, and he teaches that we should be like him.  So maybe men and women were created so different so that we could learn to be more like the greatest story ever told.

If you can forgive those who have hurt you, you are a better person, and probably a happier person and a healtheir person than those who cannot forgive you.

See full list of VFP Memorial Day Events Read VFP’s Statement on Memorial Day 2009

It is a day to mourn ALL who have died in war.  A day to remember ALL the victims, the vast majority of whom are our brothers and sisters who, by an accident of birth, were born on the receiving end of the bombs and the occupations.  Mourn them.  If you march, carry a sign saying so.

Mourn our comrades.  Mourn the dead and the wounded, the human beings who came back dehumanized because of what their government sent them to do.

But this day we mourn more than our own military dead.  Yes, we are veterans, but we are also VETERANS FOR PEACE.

Abolish war and all the mourning it causes.

Battling With High Blood Preasure and Sexuality

Luckier than most, I caught it early and found a smart doctor who knows why and can explain it to me.  My delima is that I can’t take DHEA or Yombe as those two items appear to raise my blood pressure.  These two items do very well keeping you sexually young.

This is a strange thing that young people might not understand, but I’m sure many my age would understand.

In my younger days I would masturbate and get myself off about 3 times a day and I thought I was a sinner and I felt real guilty about it, but it seemed I couldn’t do nothing about it.  When a women walked by who I found attractive, magic would happen inside, I would be awe struck, like a dear in headlights.

Years later I had discovered that there was nothing sinful about this at all.  It is perfectly natural. Everybody is different and some people are more sexual then others and it is not a curse or sign of weakness, but a blessing that has been ruined by an awful belief that sex is sinful.

How can you explain this to a young person without coming off sounding like a perv?  That is a very painful thing.  Very sad that we live in a society that is sex phobia and sadly the young people pick it up right away and will also bear their children in sinfulness.  Only Jesus born of a virgin is righteous.  If I’m not mistaken, this is the 21st century isn’t it?

Now that I’m older and this magic no longer happens and it is even difficult to get off once a day, sometimes impossible.  Some would say that I’m still pretty lucky.  There are a few who have never experienced an orgasm and yet others, very rarely and they might mistakenly believe it is because they are righteous while inside they feel anger finding it difficult to experience bliss.  Be careful of these people.  I believe they are the conservatives who believed in Bush, I bet you Dick Cheney is one of them.

We need to learn to talk about these things. Ok, that’s all I have to say for now.

I had a dream once where I died, it was a long, long ago, sometime I’m guessing in the late 1800s, I was a bank robber. I was a tall strong man who wore glasses. I stepped out of a Lutheran Church, walked down some steps and then down a walkway and nearby was a man seated on a bench, when I got passed him he shot me in the back three times and I died. He was a bounty hunter. I woke up. I thought it strange how I knew I was bank robber and that I was leaving a Luthern Church and the man who shot me a bounty hunter. Until I had this dream I used to have back pains right where the bullets landed but since the dream the pain has not appeared. I believe this was my earlier life and that would explain why I am not a tall strong man today and why I could not stay in heaven.

Strangely I have always remembered before I was born. I was in a wonderful place where there was perfect peace that is indescribable. Looking down I saw awful things, fighting and murder and such, I can’t recall all the details but I do remember the last thing I saw was a mushroom cloud bellowing up. An older man with white hair, beard and mustache (who in my younger years I believed was Jesus) came to me and said, “It’s time to go.” I felt like I knew it was coming but I was hoping it wouldn’t happen. I just could not believe after seeing all this, I would be sent there, I was distressed so much that my inside shook and tears flowed from my eyes. Understanding my pain, the older man wanting to reassure me that I would be okay put his hand on my shoulder and said, “You will be Okay.” You figure, hey, I was born in America, it hasn’t been perfect but its been okay. I spent 14 years in the Navy and never fired a gun.

When I was very little we used to have this red and white encyclopaedia set called the book of knowledge. When I would take my nap everyday I liked to look at the pictures. Sometimes when I went to take my nap I didn’t have one to look at, so I would pray to God and one would appear, when I opened it I would see that same mushroom cloud bellowing up into the sky and then it would stop and a red X would be painted over it. I had this happen about six times, but wasn’t counting so I don’t really know how many times. I was very little, before I was in kindergarten, I was psychic then. I always knew that the phone was going to ring and I always knew who was calling.

I’ve read the bible and book of Revelations several times; belonged to many churches, been baptized three times and been to several alter calls. I’m thinking it was around 1988, but one day I woke up and really began to question things. Who condemned me that I should need salvation? All of a sudden the idea that I would go to hell for not finding salvation became ludicrous and I realised that it was I who condemned me for believing something that is completely stupid. So I decided to throw out everything that I ever believed and start over. First I decided that there was a God, there had to be, looking at all of creation and its perfection, perfection cannot come by accident – and nature is more than perfect, it is art above anything we could create if we tried, no, it could not be an accident, there must be a God. So I began to study ALL religions.

I’ve read almost every scripture I could find, studied most all religions and doctrines. Hindu, Buddhism, Confucius, Indian, etc. I settled on the Gnostic religion believing the church was in aposticy.

The Gnostics believed that there were two gods. The false god was created but did not know there was anything created before it and thought it was god and created us, but we did not live and the true God had mercy and came down and breathed into us the breath of life, thus we are the only animal on this earth having a living soul. A living soul capable of great things but trapped into a carnal body. Jesus’s life, teaching and death was all about freeing our living soul. The old testament would reference both the true and false god and get the two mixed up which would explain why we have a god who would claim to be jealous and tell us to kill innocent women and children. Then I had this dream in 1996:

Now I have the truth, but it is such a little piece of truth with a million questions. I’ve prayed for further explanation for years and not received an answer, I finally decided that if I did know how we are taken like a ball of clay and made unto God, or what that even means and what is the false god and the true God? If I knew all these answers I could then tell which church was true and which church was false. I could tell which religion was false, and what one was true. I could even know what system of beliefs was right or wrong. MAYBE I’m just not supposed to know that, because there are people who very much love God and try to do His will and want to believe that they are, what would happen if I came along and told them they were wrong? Does it matter, beliefs are nothing more than strings of ones and zeros that we put together in the back of our head. When we stand before the judgment we may receive a reward for our belief in God not our belief about God but MOSTLY we will be judged according to our works.

It is now 2009 and by 2012 The Aztec Pahana is to return with the missing corner to signal the beginning of the new brotherhood; is this Jesus?

During my life I have made several attempts at suicide and thought about it much when my feelings get hurt because I know there’s a better place to be, I remember being there and all I want to do is go back there. I’ve just turned 50 today, having lived a half a century and decided it’s time to stop being a cry baby and sit down and figure out what this is all about. If you could help, I started a new group. I Remember Before I Was Born

~Roger The Okcitykid~