Update May 4, 2009
I had a dream once where I died, it was a long, long time ago, sometime
I'm guessing in the late 1800s, I was a bank robber. I was a tall
strong man who wore glasses. I stepped out of a Lutheran Church, walked
down some steps and then down a walkway and nearby was a man seated on
a bench, when I got passed him he shot me in the back three times and I
died. He was a bounty hunter. I woke up. I thought it strange how I
knew I was a bank robber and that I was leaving a Luthern Church and
the man who shot me was a bounty hunter. Until I had this dream I used
to have back pains right where the bullets landed but since the dream
the pain has not appeared. I believe this was my earlier life and that
would explain why I am not a tall strong man today and why I could not
stay in heaven.
Strangely I have always remembered before I was born. I was in
a wonderful place where there was perfect peace that is indescribable.
Looking down I saw awful things, fighting and murder and such, I can't
recall all the details but I do remember the last thing I saw was a
mushroom cloud bellowing up. An older man with white hair, beard and
mustache (who in my younger years I believed was Jesus) came to me and
said, "It's time to go." I felt like I knew it was coming but I was
hoping it wouldn't happen. I just could not believe after seeing all
this, I would be sent there, I was distressed so much that my inside
shook and tears flowed from my eyes. Understanding my pain, the older
man wanting to reassure me that I would be okay put his hand on my
shoulder and said, "You will be Okay." You figure, hey, I was born in
America, it hasn't been perfect but its been okay. I spent 14 years in
the Navy and never fired a gun.
When I was very little we used to have this red and white
encyclopaedia set called the book of knowledge. When I would take my
nap everyday I liked to look at the pictures. Sometimes when I went to
take my nap I didn't have one to look at, so I would pray to God and
one would appear, when I opened it I would see that same mushroom cloud
bellowing up into the sky and then it would stop and a red X would be
painted over it. I had this happen about six times, but wasn't counting
so I don't really know how many times. I was very little, before I was
in kindergarten, I was psychic then. I always knew that the phone was
going to ring and I always knew who was calling.
I've read the bible and book of Revelations several times;
belonged to many churches, been baptized three times and been to
several alter calls. I'm thinking it was around 1988, but one day I
woke up and really began to question things. Who condemned me that I
should need salvation? All of a sudden the idea that I would go to hell
for not finding salvation became ludicrous and I realised that it was I
who condemned me for believing something that is completely stupid. So
I decided to throw out everything that I ever believed and start over.
First I decided that there was a God, there had to be, looking at all
of creation and its perfection, perfection cannot come by accident -
and nature is more than perfect, it is art above anything we could
create if we tried, no, it could not be an accident, there must be a
God. So I began to study ALL religions.
I've read almost every scripture I could find, studied most
all religions and doctrines. Hindu, Buddhism, Confucius, Indian, etc. I
settled on the Gnostic religion believing the church was in aposticy.
The Gnostics believed that there were two gods. The false god
was created but did not know there was anything created before it and
thought it was god and created us, but we did not live and the true God
had mercy and came down and breathed into us the breath of life, thus
we are the only animal on this earth having a living soul. A living
soul capable of great things but trapped into a carnal body. Jesus's
life, teaching and death was all about freeing our living soul. The old
testament would reference both the true and false god and get the two
mixed up which would explain why we have a god who would claim to be
jealous and tell us to kill innocent women and children. Then I had
this dream in 1996:
Without
question, thought or prayer - for no reason what-so-ever. I had this
dream one night: I saw nothing, but only heard a voice, a voice that
was both male and female, I can't explain that. The voice said, "It is
true that the body is made by the false god, but the false god also
creates the soul. This continues to happen, but God takes you and makes
you unto himself as if you were a ball of clay and makes you His own.
This process takes time." I woke up. That was the whole dream, one
paragraph.
Now I
have the truth, but it is such a little piece of truth with a million
questions. I've prayed for further explanation for years and not
received an answer, I finally decided that if I did know how we are
taken like a ball of clay and made unto God, or what that even means
and what is the false god and the true God? If I knew all these answers
I could then tell which church was true and which church was false. I
could tell which religion was false, and what one was true. I could
even know what system of beliefs was right or wrong. MAYBE I'm just not
supposed to know that, because there are people who very much love God
and try to do His will and want to believe that they are, what would
happen if I came along and told them they were wrong? Does it matter,
beliefs are nothing more than strings of ones and zeros that we put
together in the back of our head. When we stand before the judgment we
may receive a reward for our belief in God not our belief about God but
MOSTLY we will be judged according to our works.
Matthew 25
31 "When
the Son of Man comes in his glory, and all the angels with him, he will
sit on his throne in heavenly glory.
32 All the nations will be gathered
before him, and he will separate the people one from another as a
shepherd separates the sheep from the goats.
33 He will put the sheep on
his right and the goats on his left.
34 "Then the King will
say to those on his right, 'Come, you who are blessed by my Father;
take your inheritance, the kingdom prepared for you since the creation
of the world.
35 For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I
was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and
you invited me in,
36 I needed clothes and you clothed me, I was sick
and you looked after me, I was in prison and you came to visit me.'
37
"Then
the righteous
will answer him, 'Lord, when did we see you
hungry and feed you, or thirsty and give you something to drink?
38 When
did we see you a stranger and invite you in, or needing clothes and
clothe you?
39 When did we see you sick or in prison and go to visit
you?'
40
"The King will reply,
'I tell you the
truth, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers of mine,
you did for me.'
41 "Then he will say to those on his left, 'Depart from me, you who are
cursed, ...
42 For I was hungry and you gave me nothing to eat, I was thirsty and
you gave me nothing to drink,
43 I was a stranger and you did not invite me in, I needed clothes and
you did not clothe me, I was sick and in prison and you did not look
after me.'
44 "They also will answer, 'Lord, when did we see you hungry or thirsty
or a stranger or needing clothes or sick or in prison, and did not help
you?'
45 "He will reply, 'I tell you the truth, whatever you did not do for
one of the least of these, you did not do for me.'
